I stared at the picture from my hospital bed while my son slept against my chest, his tiny fist curled under his chin. My incision burned every time I breathed. My milk had not fully come in. The nurse had just told me I could not lift anything heavier than the baby, which was almost funny, because I had no one to lift anything else.
My husband, Daniel, was deployed overseas. My best friend was out of state. So I had done the humiliating thing. I had asked my parents for help.
My mother, Eleanor, replied the next morning with one sentence:
You’re a mother now, Nora. Figure it out.
Two minutes later, Chloe sent a photo of herself in a white swimsuit beside a champagne bucket:
Don’t be dramatic, Nora. Mom and Dad deserve joy too.
I did not answer. I changed my son’s diaper with shaking hands, signed my discharge papers alone, and paid for a ride home because my father, Arthur, had “forgotten” I was leaving the hospital that day.
By the sixth day, I had learned to stand up from bed without crying out. I had learned to warm bottles with one hand. I had learned that loneliness had a sound: the soft buzz of a phone nobody answered.
Then my bank app flashed red.
Attempted withdrawal: $2,300
Location: Caribbean Sea ATM
Cardholder: Arthur Vance
