“Of course it was.”
“I got on at Harvard Station because I was meeting Mia downtown. The train was packed, and this guy was standing across from me reading ‘The Great Gatsby.’”
I smiled.
“You noticed the book first?”
“I noticed he wasn’t pretending to read it to look smart.”
That made me laugh.
“He kept smiling every time someone got on because this little kid across from him was trying to pronounce the station names. At one point the kid asked him if ‘Massachusetts’ was the longest word in the world.”
“And?”
“He said, ‘Only if you’re six.’”
She laughed all over again, reliving the moment.
I hadn’t seen her this excited in years. Stormy was cautious with people, so seeing her this excited made me pay attention.
“So you talked?” I asked.
“He asked what I was reading.”
“And?”
“I told him I wasn’t reading anything because my phone died.”
I raised an eyebrow. “Smooth.”
“I know.”
She groaned dramatically.
“I thought I’d completely embarrassed myself.”
“But you didn’t.”
“He laughed and said that was the most honest answer he’d heard all week.”
She tucked a strand of hair behind her ear, smiling at the memory. “We talked all the way to South Station.”
“And then?”
“He asked if I’d like to get coffee sometime.”
“So you said yes.”
“I absolutely said yes.”
I reached across the island and squeezed her hand.
“I’m happy for you.”
She smiled.
“I know it’s only been one subway ride, but it already feels different.”
I remembered being nineteen, and believing the right conversation could change your life.
Sometimes it could.
“So,” I asked, “does this dream guy have a name?”
“Jordan.”
“Do you at least have a picture?”
Her eyes lit up.
“Oh.”
She pulled out her phone immediately.
“We took some before I got off.”
She scrolled through her camera roll until she found it.
“There.”
She held the phone toward me, and the smile disappeared from my face before I even realized it had.
A young man stood beside Stormy on the subway platform, one arm casually slung over his backpack strap.
Dark curls.
Hazel eyes.
That crooked smile.
For one impossible second, I forgot how to breathe.
No.
It couldn’t be.
Twenty two years had passed.
People found look-alikes every day. Boston wasn’t exactly a small town.
“Mom?”
Stormy’s voice sounded strangely far away.
“You okay?”
I forced myself to blink.
“Sorry.”
I looked at the photograph again.
“He reminds me of someone I knew.”
She tilted the phone toward herself. “You think so?”
Before I could answer, she swiped to the next picture. This one had caught Jordan walking away toward the train doors.
His backpack rested over one shoulder.
And hanging from the zipper was a tiny blue felt teddy bear.
One button eye was blue, the other green. The left ear leaned slightly lower than the right.
No.
It couldn’t be.
Hundreds of people owned little teddy bear keychains.
Thousands of women knew how to sew.
Boston wasn’t so small that two strangers couldn’t end up with something that looked almost identical.
I forced myself to look away.
I refused to believe an old keychain could drag 22 years back into my kitchen.
I walked into the kitchen, gripped the sink, and tried to steady myself. Because 22 years earlier, I’d sewn one exactly like it for the only man I’d ever planned to marry.
His name was Richard.
I couldn’t afford the birthday gift he wanted, so I sewed him a tiny blue teddy bear from scraps of felt. One button came from an old cardigan, the other from my grandmother’s sewing tin.
He clipped it onto his backpack that same day and carried it everywhere, joking it was his good-luck charm.
